You’ll never believe what happened.
Seriously, I don’t even know what happened this year but somehow I made it out far better than when I went into it. It was a weird year overall, and I’m not sure if I’m thankful for it or if i regret it a lot. Well, in a few years maybe I’ll have a better clue.
So what were the heavy hitters in terms of your flaws? Well that’s easy: fear, nerves, and fear. Hence I made my first year “Year of The Fearless” in attempt to rid us of these issues. Strangely, I made a lot more progress being fearless this year more than anything else, even under the concept of “Year of The Resilient”.
That’s the thing with life, the lessons just happen. You can’t plan out your life but you can always prepare, and I’m happy with what I did that made me feel so free and fearless. I made a few irrational decisions, I acted on emotions and my own desires, but I was a lot happier being me because of it.
15, you spent a lot of time invested in other people, and for me it was nice to be a bit self indulgent at times. I had moments when I wanted to just be the forgiving one again and work to make everything okay, but I stopped myself and let go of this idea that it was my sole responsibility to keep everyone but myself happy.
This year I focused on resiliency, and I think it was perfect because I did just that. I had people knock me down, but I got right back up and fought harder than before. Darling, you were so nervous (not as bad as 14) and let people walk all over you. I didn’t allow that this year, or I tried to not.
15, you were a beautiful year for me, and I’m excited to join you in the memory books as year 17 enters through the gates in a few short hours. This year was the year a lot changed for me, but at the same time i made it out with only a few scrapes (I just stubbed my toe and it was really painful).
Today was a perfect last day of being, as I hung out with two of the greatest people, and I’m honored that being 16 gave me this day with them.
So 15, I totally killed it this year. You were good but I was better :P Lets see if 17 can get on my level.
I love you,